One of the biggest issues with being an introvert or a loner or even secretive is that you can never truly be open and honest with anyone about all your feelings. Granted there are always a few people in your life that you are more open with, but even they don't get to hear about everything that happens in your life or about all your worries.
For me, my sister is the one person that is aware of almost everything that goes on in my life, but I still tend to keep a lot of things from her because I am scared of being truly open with all that I feel, all my fears, and all my worries. From time to time I find myself wanting to unburden myself, but I fear that if I let myself open up, the dam of feelings will burst forth and I might just crumble under all of the overwhelming emotions.
As I type this I can barely see and my head hurts from trying to keep the tears in; yet, for some reason, today the pain of the loneliness is so overwhelming and I just want to let someone know how helpless I sometimes feel. I am not even sure of what I can do to feel better? I don't want to go outside, I don't want to meet people, I just wish I didn't feel this way anymore and I wish I knew how to go about doing that on my own.
