Winding down the year on a high note?

I still cannot believe that October is about to come to an end. It seems like January was just yesterday, but when I look back on all I have achieved this year I can truly believe that 10 months of this year are almost over.

When this year began I had a few items on my list that I really wanted to achieve. Staying on track health wise and getting a part time job. I have seemingly achieved both goals, knock on wood, and I am on my way to having a very successful year in terms of doing all I need to do to have peace of mind about my life.

I still falter every now and then with staying on my physical health journey, but all in all I am hanging in there and trying to get to my destination. I feel like this is the longest journey to my goal weight I have ever taken. It seems like every time I gain some momentum, I falter, stumble and fall off. I hover at the 250lb goal weight and just stay there and hold on to that post like a lifesaver. I just need to push past this post and get to where I need to be. In as much as I feel like not getting back to my heaviest weight is a success, I still need to get to my goal weight. Not moving backward is definitely progress, but not moving forward is a kind of failure; one that I need to push through and past.

I can do this, I know that I have it in me, I just need to figure out how to go about doing it in  a way that is sustainable. I cannot keep failing, I fear that if I do, eventually I may just give up.

My issues with people who do not have their shit together.

I am by no means perfect. Hell, I am the definition of imperfection. Yet in all of my hogwash of nonsense I still seem to have my life together. I make sure I get to work early and get my work done perfectly. I pay all my bills before they are due and make sure that I have enough money to cover each expense. I have a small nest egg, so that if God forbid, my boss comes to her senses and fires me I will still be able to foot my bills while looking for a new job. With that being said, I find it extremely difficult and very aggravating that I work with people who do not have their lives together and I have to deal with these people as colleagues and customers.

Each month I am stuck having conversations with grown ass people who either do not know when their rent is due or do not have enough money to cover the checks they write for said rent. Then I am stuck in this merry go round of, "well I paid on time but the check hit before my paycheck cleared and blibidy blabady doo..." I do not care why your check bounced, I just care that it did and you should care that I am about to file a failure to pay rent suit on your ass. These grown ass individuals act like it is my job to figure out how to make their lives easier, nope...it is not. I am childless for a reason, I will not be adopting your overgrown dumbass; figure it out yourself. The worst part of this whole scenario though is when their parents call because Beavis and Butthead went and cried to mommy and daddy about their bounced rent check and subsequent fees. Guess what?? I am not talking to your mommy either, I"ll be damned if I will be answering stupid ass questions because neither you nor your obviously delusional parents know how to live in the real world.

Do not get me started on my "colleagues", I use this term lightly because at most they are people I work in the same building with, who always whine about how stressful their job is or how they cannot pay their bills. Wench maybe if you did not spend all your money eating out you would not be writing bad checks all over town. I do not feel bad for you and I have no words of wisdom for you either. Get your life together before you end up getting evicted and having to live in your car. I swear I wonder how some of these people are still alive.

So far this year....

I have tried to stay on track with a few of my goals. I am working on my attitude and although I am failing daily, I am determined to stick to trying to have a better attitude in general. I have reined in my overeating and in the last few months I have stayed on track with my eating habits; and in the past couple of months I have lost over half of the 42 lbs I regained last year. 

I have not traveled as much as I was supposed to, I took a day trip to New Jersey and I am planning a longer trip to Vegas in December. I have not purchased my bike yet, but I plan to and I did not get to volunteer like I hoped I would. Instead I got a part time job that keeps me up until 4 a.m. most weekends, I work at a gay nightclub, and for the most part it is very enjoyable and entertaining and it does not really mess up my weekend like a regular day time part time job would have.

I have never been a person who liked going out let alone going clubbing, so the fact that I now work at a nightclub is very ironic to say the least. The beauty of my situation though is I am a people watcher, I love to observe people and see how they react in different situations and I can find the comedy in anything and everything that I witness on a day to day basis. Since I work at the box office, I have limited interactions with people, but please believe that those interactions, short as they may be, can be very entertaining. I do not know how long I will last at this place, my new found zeal for working out makes me wish I had my weekends to myself, so if I feel like this job is taking a toll on me, I will drop it like a bad habit. For now though, I am enjoying my situation and making the best of this experience.

New year, same issues, different solutions?

Every year I vow to stay on track with my weight loss efforts or start a new weight loss plan and most years I veer off the track and gain all the weight I have lost or don't lose any weight at all. For once I would like to have a resolution that has nothing to do with my physical appearance. For once I would like to focus on working on my personality and my attitude and the way I relate to people and react to situations. For once I would like to focus on my mental well being and maybe I will have a successful year.

So this year I plan on going out more, being less stressed, connecting more with the friends I have, reconnecting with the friends I have lost touch with and making new and lasting friendships.

This year I plan on going on trips to new and exciting places, learning new skills and meeting new people.

This year I plan to volunteer as much as possible to causes that I feel strongly about. No more procrastinating.

This year I plan to ride my bike, actually go out riding not just taking the class but actually putting what I have learned to use.

This year I plan to start living my best life, whatever that may be.

So cheers to a fun filled new year, and good luck to everyone else who plans to have fun this year.